Princess Likhoon.. God's Child

Thank God I Found You Lyrics- Mariah Carey ft. 98 Degrees

2011-05-16T00:46:00.000+08:00

You spoke to me

2011-05-15T23:43:00.002+08:00

Dear Lord,
You spoke to me.
Yes, You did & I know it.
I wrote my feelings and words that I wanna tell you.
with that expectations
I awaiting your reply.
Wondering if you ever know wat is in my heart.

In sermon in that service itself You were there.
U said Im in spiritual battle, wrestle with the devil all the time.
You said wat im doing is for the sake of my friends' soul. not just me alone.

Yes, indeed. Satan always used the stupid same old tricks. But why am I that stupid enough to even believe in his lies over again. and You said help is from You.
God, You are the winner. How stupid can a person be to even fight with you because even the satan not that stupid to fight with you face to face but attack us your children.

2 Corinthians 2:11:
11 so that Satan will not outsmart us. For we are familiar with his evil schemes.

Yes God,
Satan keeps me distracted all the time.
I placed work and studies above you after ITE.
Why do i feel that its by my own ability to achieve such results and not by ur strenght lo. How stupid can i be.
Yes, once the devil caught our attention in seeing wat he is doing, we will give my attention to wat seem urgent but not impt. How sad is it to know.
I am selfish,God. I always focus on myself instead of focusing on you who gave me everything though it doesnt belong to me. Im selfish also because i forgotten abt the impt of lost souls mean to You and me. totally forgotten abt the purpose.We are called to make disciples of all nations. Not just in singapore and a small area. Im selfish because i look into the needs of myself and not others before me.

Yes, You answered me again. I asked you once why do I mixed with friends so easily thn other ppl. And You said that even You gave me friends, I don even dare to share. How shameful of me God. I totally ignored the talents you have given to me. And Yes God, I know wat You saying. Serve the community Now.

I told You I hate for being big in size. Yet God, You said that size does not matter. every single part is vital.

The devil likes to keep us distracted. and yes, all the time.
He made me focus on the things that went wrong and even asked You why is it so. only I found out God You are always in control at the very end. You forgave me and let me move on with you and start all over again.

You said it so true. You said unless im spiritually tranformed, only thn my live will impact others. this is the answer im been waiting for God. More thn the results that i got from studies and GB.
the purpose is that I wan my live to impact others in a special way.

Bring me back to You.
Give me another chance again God.
This life that I used to live is terrible and meaningless.

the mind battle with physical disabilities

2011-04-28T21:58:00.004+08:00

The spirit is strong but the body is weak. As for me, both are weak.
Im indeed in the state of confusion yet I know what to do.
Am I really emotional and filled with negative thoughts?
am I really the follower of emotions/feelings?

Why i cant see it in the eyes of God. How should i go abt it?
Why I just cant love the unlovable with a GRACEFUL heart when God forgave me by His Grace? How to love?

Lukewarm ar Lukewarm. Rmb? God said we can either be cold or hot but not lukewarm. He will spit us out of His mouth.
My God. HOw HOw how?

Humility. Ppl faked themselves by being "shy" or "ppl told me that Im good-> PPL said de, others said de"
If that the case. Isnt it self-praise?

Reasons for selfpraise:
1. Increase Self-esteem
2. Insecure
3. Sense of achievement

God, Jesus, His Humble.
This I wanna learn.

a brand new status

2011-04-22T19:35:00.005+08:00

wah, it's been nearly one yr since my last blog..
Guess nobody will read blogs anymore le bah..
haha! so, watever i write on my blog, NOBODY WILL NOE?! keke...

haha, one yrs of changes.
finally became a full-fledged Staff Nurse after so so long.
two and half yrs of studies?
Really THANK GOD FOR THE RESULTS I GOT!
Diploma in Merit, Outstanding Performance award in one of my Module Nursing Management.

i never thought of having such a good result before esp when im in Secondary School.

God, indeed, You really gave me wat You promised in Sec3.

Should I go for NUS nxt yr or Private Uni?
God, Please tell me wat to do.

I got a very strong feeling that Im going back to my current own ward.
No matter wat, God, I know that you are with me. always. You will never leave or forsake me. Thank You.

2010-05-18T18:39:00.002+08:00

After so long of struggles, I'm starting my diet all over again!
I will lose 15 kGs this time using the same method!
likhoon!! U gonna jiayou ok! U can do it sine u did it before the other time!
Perserve!!! Set ur mind on the goal and jiayou!!!
No pork no duck! Only seafood, chicken and fish ok!
No fried stuffs, no fast food, no potatos no rice no beehoon.. :)
no gas drink only plain water and green tea!!!!
No flour no breads!
Low fat low sugar low salt! Jiayou!!!

Be honest

2010-05-11T09:43:00.000+08:00

Life is full of ups and down..
Living Godly way is never easy for me.
Especially this period of time..
I kept rejecting ppl's concern for me..
Never want to be a burden to others yet unknowingly I did.
I forgotten what God spoke to me regarding wat He had in mind for me.
How foolish am I to walk in my ways rather thn His ways.
I'm dead spiritually. First time I felt so helpless and lost in my life.
Never felt like this before.. Indeed, I super far away from Him.

Asked myself on Sunday, who am I in Christ?
Surprisingly, I can't answer it at all. Went online to search for answer.
Thn realized Diana gave mr a blue card few years ago and asked me keep in my wallet. Bring it everywhere I go.
Only that point of time i know wat those words in the cards really meant to me.

Can I? Can I not?
A blog that used to be so encouraging in the past yet now full of complains and grumblings...

Should I or should I not?

in doubt

2010-05-07T09:39:00.002+08:00

year 3! never have this feeling before. dragging myself to school just because it important?
first time i feel so so so lousy. was on the bus on the way to school, reaching sim soon, abt to alight at sim busstop. my mind is having spiritual battle.

95% of my mind is telling me not to go to school.
the rest of the 5% said i have to go to school, i don have a choice at all.
FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME I ACTUALLY DRAGGED MY BODY TO SCHOOL
how horrible is it? how lousy is it?

Changing of my class is a unwelcomed plan for me.
though ppl do have to adapt to changes but why is it now?
left with just half a year or 4 mths to go before go for my prcp and i have to get used to the environment again. trying to cope with my heavy workload from studies.
and i hate 12 may!
Immunology class test, nurm exam and fyp individual lit review that i have to hand in on the same day! plus im going for data collection on wed.

year3 modules is so heavy. so what if i manage to even study everyday?
by the time i get home and prepare for the nxt day class,i don even have the time to revise for that day lesson. what more if i have to do projects and fyp?

nursing stress? yes i do.
i did doubted myself ytd whether am i really suitable to be a staff nurse a not.
thoughts of coming to poly to get a dip and etc, plus the heavy responsiblility of a staff nurse job...

Yes i know i cant get anywhere if i dont have at least a diploma.
Yes, i want to be a wound nurse and a pallative nurse. that's my aim.

the reason of why i choose to go the path that i wan (nursing in ite) rather thn choosing any course in poly is because of my interest, my passion.
And coz of it, im happy.
Actually, though Enrolled Nurse is a so called "dirty job" but bedside nursing is what i wanted actually.

Can i say that i don like staff nurse job at all? as in the job scope. I don like it at all.
can i just be a simple me? a simple nurse who enjoy her job instead of facing each day with stress and carry heavy responsiblilties upon my shoulder?

i hate pharmacology and i hate report/documentation.

Everyday go to school for lesson, sitting in class, listening to what the lecturers say.
making me feel so stress and doubtful about myself and abilities to be a good staff nurse.

i cant recognise myself. who am i?

2010-03-11T23:00:00.004+08:00

what the craps am i doing? hit the peak last week.
i can really sense that my blood pressure is high to the point whereby i might get stroke.
stress? wat do i stress abt? why? its not that im PMS.
im starting to lose my temper with my close friends, getting super sensitive about what they said. or u can say im utimately irritated to the max.
i just don wan to talk to them, coz of what they said earlier.
though they don mean it, but i really think negative when they said it.
they are my close friends yet..... why???????
starting to lose my rational.
WHO AM I??

i really wanted to spend time alone.
ppl only know how to say " don stress lah don stress. some just donnoe say why stress, it's very easy mah. see what you heart say loh. and bleah." don u know how irritated am i?"
honestly, i don need your suggestions or advise.
stop standing at your view to advise. coz u wouldnt understand since u don even care to listen for that very few minutes. interruption of speech turns ppl OFF.
just sit there and listen. FULL STOP.
don add those phrases that don mean to be sarcastic but it sounds sarcastic to me.
when u are at the peak, nothing you heard is good.
furthermore; who wanna be stress?
stress is just a moment of emotions and it take some time to cool down and think.
just don talk during that "cool down period".

DO u have enough time to spend with ur loved ones?
NO! i yearning for more time. squeezing here and there. trying.
but ppl see only; "i will try, 50t%50%'
But don see the whole picture.
"do what your heart say loh loh, U come lah lah, prioritize. U need to prioritze."

first thing first. i havent spend time with my sisters for how long liao since im living in sengkang.
why friday die die also wan me to go? its my morning shift and im going back to cck!"
go the the talk (though its good), tell me what time go home? next day camp? 2 days camps okies. thn? next monday attachment morning. thn go back camp again. and thn?

WHO IS NOT TIRED?? WHO WHO WHO???
do u guys ever think? my welfare?
if im tired, no matter where u wan me to go or what u wan me to go, i will collapse.
thn u will tell me "likhoon, don emo leh. come lah talk. "
how to reply?

alright. my egocentric now.
coz my hierarchy of basis needs is not even met.

im disappointed.
disappointed with myself and things
last week cell group last kairos meeting
i prayed "sinner prayer" with zhenyi in BBSS lah, how i actually keep asking fiona to come lah, christine lah, choon yan lah..... lilin lah.. those ex-meh meh. who is already not my meh meh..
as well as those xiao joshua, xiao keith lah..
talking and forcing jacelyn to do qt.

i still rmb yuting told me few years back that im the one who share christ with her.
still got xueli and Yuityeng..

my ex cellgroup rowl..
my gb clings

it's so hurting and emotional to think abt them.
times that i invested. well, i donnoe lah..

why do i have so much time last time to do all these?
why now no?

they said choose and manage ur time.
i didnt? i plan, i put in schedule.
but"?
if time allows, i will invest in them again...... ...
haix.

its gonna be a "good" year 3 for me
i will be busy to the max

i keep on asking " will u come and send me off?"
but, actually...
no need lah.. everyone is busy.

2010-01-03T01:14:00.002+08:00

its a new year! 2010. forever 21.. (:
hmmm. today sermon spoke a lot to me.
if only i will have the time to really think through..

Big things and Small things.
Big prayers and small prayers.
prayers required persistence, boldness and shamelessness.

3 things to do in order not to backside.
15 mins talk to God, 15 mins listening to God, 15 mins speaking to others about God.
i used to tell my mehmehs that giving God 30 mins of ur time out of 24 hrs is very demanding meh?

Lishan talk to me lots today, and my memory is failing me. 0.o
but the one of the things that she said is quite true, a issue that i cant forgive myself or.. i cant forget it. my small caregroup that i forsaken becoz of my own emotions.. i keep thinking if only if only if only i didnt do what i did and press on, things will turn out better rather thn now. i know i need to let it go.

God asked me: "ur things is big and important or IS IT MINE?"

during the sermon, suddenly a thought came into my mind. what do i wan for my bday? i really don wan any physical stuffs lah.
I wan a group of ppl to pray for me daily. and this shall be my bday gift.
SUPER SINCERE IMPORTANT, BIG, PRICELESS
i guess this is be best gift ever for anyone coz prayers is persistence....
I wan this.

Hmmm, out of topic for a little while.... just wan to type my frustrations here.
someone asked me this: 'Likhoon, how come u can mix around well with kids/guys younger than u but not older thn u leh?'
i told her i just cant mix loh.
but i think the answer is: 'I cant be myself at all if our topics dont match. No matter how many times i may force myself to go along with the group, i wont be happy.'

I loved to be crazy! i wan to play like a kid! go camping! go fly kite! pinic! underwater world! eat what i wan to eat! i like to go playground and climb up and down! i like to play swings! i like to shout!!! i like to talk loud!!!!!!!!! i like to do knitting lah! shopping lah!! handcraft things!!! i like to cook!!! i like to overnight at mac to study!! IF IM GIVEN A CHANCE, I WILL LIE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD AND ROLL!!!! talk about the things i like! i don like to hesitate wat i wan to say becoz its kind of disgusting to others. such as leg hairs lah, some education issues abt sex organs etc.. i know im not talking abt dirty stuffs but im educating others! so what wrong with it? isnt it's impt to educate others as a nurse? SO WHAT'S WRONG WITH IT??? IM STRAIGHTFORWARD!!

im faking if im trying to act happy when im not. why smile when im not happy? why have to lie when they asked me ok a not? it's sucks to the max to find common topics to talk abt when there is none. why have to act gentle when im not?

there's a lot of things i wan to do.. but ppl always shut me off when i suggest!
so. what's the point? wont click means wont click! and forever they wont click!

why must always act/behave according to ur age?
its not that im immature but rather, that's me!
love the way i am but He created me to be.

2009-11-26T01:41:00.003+08:00

did u ever wonder? why birds can withhold its body weight with just two "orange-colored" legs?
amazing right? why human cant?

abit kind of random. LOL

im so happy that i have found so many primary school back on facebook. ya, a bit like nothing to say like that. LOL. haha. but im still quite glad though.

im very stress up now. hmm, my heart, head and soul is feeling kind of "heavy"
stress from my part time work place esp from my lady boss. should i just quit and that's it? very irresponsible.
well i don have the mind to think when to have drill trainings for the DIs leh.. common test next week and i still donnoe what am i doing. cant study at all. too many things on mind.
next week got a lot of things to do.

On my way to OIP china. though excited for it but a lot of things to do. i heard that we have to do a pre-presentation slides to present to the ppl going for this trip, plus my group have to sort of come up with a dance!! either malay or indian dance for the china ppl! oh craps! how can i dance? this is like so... a trip only mah, why must do so many things???

next year got Drill instructor course, First aid competition, NCO training camp....... plus still got zonal drill.... plus, my service in community work...

a lot hor... i haven plan anything yet............. i wan to shout it out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

can someone bring me to beach? haiz drive me there and bring me home.
fat hope!

2009-11-20T13:16:00.002+08:00

im going for Overseas Immersion Program to China from 29 March to 16 april.
im excited to go. (:
free from singapore and everything

yan bu jian wei jing.

2009-11-20T13:15:00.001+08:00

indeed it's a failure. :(

2009-11-19T23:35:00.004+08:00

fhew! practical test over! yup! i got a feeling that God is hinting me that i will get neurological assessment. the only skills with a lot of steps bah. Thank God that the teacher said i did pretty well!

abt one more week to common test, hmmm.
quite stress this term as most of the modules are not what i often do in hospital at all. or can say that i never do it after i graduate from school bah.

hmmm, was looking through the past posts.. very interesting.
reminded me of all the time God have blessed me.. (: in ite of coz
hmmm, the only thing that i don understand is that why is it only in ite/studies aspect leh?
or is it maybe im not sensitive enough? hmmm
... ... ... ...
it is not that im "emo" or what bah..
it just kind of reflection.. reflecting abt my life..

what on earth have i done after i graduated from BBSS......
what is my priority....
what is my stand....

a failure to be a good shepherd
a failure to lead though im given a chance
and something happened recently.. someone asked me "why she do this to you? u are her officer before leh. why she didnt show u any due respect?"
wah, this is hurting man.
maybe... maybe ... maybe... im just a passerby that doesn't influence anybody life at all..
actually can reflected from the previous sheeps i had before.
ya, i gave them up and its my fault. but i regretted why i never hold on no matter what.
why... why ... they don even know that their actions and lies hurts to the maximun point when i found out the truth. thinking that they can just lie and that's it.
sometime, the more care and concerns u showed upon the person, the disappointment u will become..

always wan me to say say say. but how to say.
no matter how much i tell the leaders, do they really understand?
donnoe how exactly how i feel. * ya. cannot follow feeling... -.-*
or should i say "do u even care as a leader?"
don't hope much from u actually.
to me, maybe u are just another passby in my life. a stranger that i don really know.
or, a leader that don even care.

still, running away don solve the problem.

liars!

2009-11-13T08:38:00.002+08:00

hmmm, maybe i just don undertstand love.
can ppl really will change their heart so fast?
something such things happened so often that it make me scare and don wish to get into a relationship.
they are liars when they do such things lah.
if they can do the same to others, they can do the same things to you!
Most, not all are just big liars in their relationships.
guys who are really attached, still sms and sweet-talk with other girls are jerks to the extent.
"oh, they are just friends" "YOU MUST TRUST ME, CAN?"
er xin.
i really dislike such ppl to the max. negative impression. ignore them forever.

good guys are hard to find.

one of my friend said that her boyfriend must sms her everyday in the morning. i questioned her why.
the reason she said that it will makes her life like "good morning dear."
wah, to me is like........ really need meh? everyday sms like that also sianx even though sms is free (for me)

BGR is just too complex and complicated.
i think it's better to stay single huh.

new updates (:

2009-11-09T11:18:00.002+08:00

well, so long long long long never blog! hmmm, wat should i write leh? baba lala.. HAHA

hmm, 2.2 not so stress as 2.1 haha! but well, PAS is something like NR? have to read all kind of articles to answer to the questions? i don like it leh! hai. that's the things that i most stressed abt.
everyday have to wake up early no matter wat time my school start, coz have to wait for my sister school bus to come. hai. very tiring leh. :(

my sister got school thn i have to rush home? super tired.
everybody in school is busy. and me too.
who will really understand one's situation when they think they are the most busy person in the world compare to others?

haix. gonna enjoy study.

touch community(:

2009-10-18T23:53:00.003+08:00

MEALS ON WHEEL DELIVERY!!
well, i thought will have more ppl in this but only 2 teams and 2 people in each team (:
got paired up with this 33 years old guy peng soon. quite a nice guy anyway (:
he joined this touch com for 3 years plus le wor. so long huh? he only doing the meals delivery only. he said that only aunties and uncles will volunteer their time, not many youngsters..
well, SADLY FOR ME! haha!

this MOW is kind of like a exercise for me bah.
He drive a van around, and yup im the runner. COZ I CANT DRIVE
me, first time, searching high and low for the block number, the staircase and WHERE THE LIFT (MOST IMPT)
running here and there.. aiyo, panting..
packing the food inside the van (something like church van lah)

you know that kind of scene u saw on drama? one room flat with very dark and stuffy corridors?
i saw it man, very eerie though its afternoon..
most of the elderlys cant walk, have to use walking cane etc..
i went into one of the flat to give her the lunch
i guess she is so painful that she cant walk, she throw her key at me and ask me to open up the door myself.
well, really. the hse is even smaller than my living room.. or almost the size of my bedroom only excluding the kitchen.
did u ever see a flat without any sofa, bed? only chair? one chair?
i saw it today for the second time.
the uncle sleep on the cardboard wor!
the whole room is empty. (i didnt go in)

just happened, i went to the flats (area) where i first did the volunteer work (hse painting) by school. the toa payoh there. the place where i know that 2 firemans?!
haha, i went to visit the two elderly again...
the ah ma don remember me le:( maybe she got dementia? i don know lah..
thank God the ah pei rmb me...
have a good chat with him thn i went off le..

quite meaningful lah.. (:
amazing.. need to think and be thankful how fortunate i am, to be blessed by God so so so much.

2009-10-14T15:07:00.003+08:00

woo, in jurong library now, reading.. preparing myself for the upcoming sem..

i know im abit too gan chiong liao.. but its too stress lah.. got to prepare earlier.. (:

thanks to tsz en and regina for the notes. (:

i feel so relax lah, to sit in the cafe, enjoy ice chocolate and reading my notes without any stress. wah, i hope for more time to do such things, keke..

enjoyment. :D

been wanting to blog for the past few weeks, but donnoe wat to say..

lazy to sit in front of desktop to use internet.. coz my hse got no wireless. sad..

if got wireless, i will sit on my sofa, my bed, my table to surf net as and when i like liao wor.. haha.

well, been observing my surrounding these few days.. those teenagers, JC students and secondary skol students..

wah, all i can say is that they are CHILDISH? IMMATURE?

i heard 4 sec-skol girls talking abt one girl bf, thn donnoe wat how much the boys hen ai her, its a correct choice to accept him, donnoe wat the boy only dare to kiss her on her lips lah, donnoe why all her surrounding friends wan to ask if she is with him lah.

craps, watever? they are letting the whole world to know lah... -.- don wan to hear also cannot..

they are just kids, yet why BGR so important leh?

i really wonder if guys really like girls who loved to sa-jiao?

2009-10-13T22:33:00.002+08:00

"Because You Loved Me"

by Celine Dion

For all those times you stood by me

For all the truth that you made me see

For all the joy you brought to my life

For all the wrong that you made right

For every dream you made come true

For all the love I found in you

I’ll be forever thankful baby

You’re the one who held me up

Never let me fall

You’re the one who saw me through

through it all

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn’t speak

You were my eyes when I couldn’t see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach

You gave me faith ’coz you believed

I’m everything I am

Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly

You touched my hand I could touch the sky

I lost my faith, you gave it back to me

You said no star was out of reach

You stood by me and I stood tall

I had your loveI had it all

I’m grateful for each day you gave me

Maybe I don’t know that much

But I know this much is true

I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn’t speak

You were my eyes when I couldn’t see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach

You gave me faith ’coz you believed

I’m everything I am

Because you loved me

You were always there for me

The tender wind that carried me

A light in the dark shining your love into my life

You’ve been my inspiration

Through the lies you were the truth

My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn’t speak

You were my eyes when I couldn’t see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach

You gave me faith ’coz you believed

I’m everything I am

Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn’t speak

You were my eyes when I couldn’t see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach

You gave me faith ’coz you believed

I’m everything I am

Because you loved me

I’m everything I am

Because you loved me

2009-09-23T21:21:00.004+08:00

hai.. my time table cannot make it at all...

PEOPLE! no more outings liao... :(

my sister got school also.. haix...

she got classes on every Monday, Tuesday, Thurs and Saturday and some sunday!

cannot go out and study liao.. :(

cannot go gb on tues and friday liao...

if u are free, pray for changes on friday and monday can? so that i can work, no need to rush..

im not happy today

2009-09-06T21:48:00.002+08:00

reached BB east ave 5 at 830am.
waited for the civil defence officers plus the students for 2 hours!!
all the way til 1030am
obviously, im not happy at all.
keep on telling myself that im doing my service for the family for God, just heck care ya!!
called my friend a student leader for this event to complain.. or u can say nag.
well, he said asked me to relax and ya....... blah blah blah!
i even told the person that i planning to go home already, it just.... cannot make it. -.-
but i stayed nearby void deck to see if got anyone go up the stairs a not.
the person asked me to go and do the cleaning first!
i told her " wat? wan me to go up clean first? i don even know anyone and im alone loh! cannot lah!" i wont wan to go up alone de. so dangerous!

end up, i stayed and help out.
4 room flats without sofa, beds.
only tv and kitchen stuffs. the whole living room and rooms are empty! practically without anything lah! drawings with crayons markers pens and pencils on the walls by the kids.
its a malay family with 4 boys and 1 girl.

im in charge to clean the walls with brush using ciff. im still okies with it.

wat made me very angry is the PARENT!!
while all of us are busy with our works, the mother can chit chat on the phone in the kitchen for quite some time! the father worse! beside helping with a little bit of painting initally, he just lie down on the floor and rest while the rest of us (me and students) busy scrubbing the walls!
wat the ....
im so angry lah! really.
its like basis courteous can! even the little kids came to help me for even just a while (they are primary skol kids) but the parent are like.... 0.0

im not happy with the family. but im happy that i have done my job well even though im quite pissed off by their attitude. -.- wat im doing is for the kids for the kids! *reminding myself*
i don think this family deserve any helps in cleaning or painting the house.
coz i saw the kids playing with PSP loh!! -.- even me myself don gave a psp lah! how can i spend money on things that's not important compare with daily needs leh?

i think ytd is better, at least i build some bonding with the girls and the firemans. i really think that my help is necessay and essential to the elderly.
but today?
haix, totally disappointment.
i think others esp elderly deserve my help than them.

my first voluntary work!! Home Makeover!!

2009-09-06T00:26:00.002+08:00

!! my first voluntary work!! yup! by the NP tgt with the "4pm" organisation.
was told to go to jalan terenah or wat, near toa payoh. i really have no idea where is the place in the first place. they said the meeting time is 830am. i reached at 825am loh! guess wat? the civil defence officers and the secondary kids from broadrick sec reached at 915am or 920am. *testing my patience! i don like to wait for ppl de* well, i decided not to let this spoil my mood for helping ya. (:

meet the civil defence officer. i thought is just one guy, ended up with 4 guys but for 2 different houses. okies fine! this is how they introduced themselves to the girls plus me (only NP student) "Hi girls, my name is eddie from fire station, we are fire fighters."
im like "HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! okies fire fighters.. -.-" HAHA

thn we proceed to the house! the exciting part!
the hse is full of dusts and dirt. i guess got at least 5 years or more never clean the hse already..
hmmm, the girls likes to paint, so as for me i wipe everywhere i can see loh! haha, im the wipe wipe girl. well.
the ah ma sit on a computer chair and the ah peh walk around to help us loh. its a 2 room flat. they got a lot of things ar.. ( i like to throw the useless things away) but i cant do it ar, irritating. if not i will make the whole hse super empty! haha. i washed the toilet! their toilet may look normal and the cleanest of all BUT when i wipe the wall, OH MAn! THE CLOTH TURNED YELLOW! its much more disgusting thn dust lah can. -.- aiyoyo!!
sadly, we unable to print the whole hse. left the room not paint. haix. but i did wiped here and there..

REFLECTION!
im happy! esp when i see the smile on the ah peh face! i think being a volunteer should have the spirit of excellence! but i don see that in them today except one. they are good! really good! i think health is important, should maintain good health in order to prevent long term illness. i think being filial is important for all youngsters. well, we lack of it nowadays. haix. got one girl told me "jie. you are the only girl i know not scare of dirty job hor." instill correct mindset is important too? lesser maid employment helps? haix..

well, another one more on sunday! at bukit batok! (: jiayou!

it so hard to be promotor lah!

2009-08-30T20:57:00.002+08:00

oh man! i stand for almost 8 hours!
baby fair. promoting watever car seats lah, carriers lah, strollers lah, cot lah, mattress lah, breast pumps lah, bath tub lah!
though is just a small station, but i freaked out when they ask me questions!
oh those questions sucks mah! horrible. things like
"where is this made in? what is the material make of? wat so expensive about your items comparing to others? can use until how old or maximum how many kgs?"
HOW I KNOW?
im not mother of one yet mah! how would i know if they are better thn others or watever lah!
its my first time touching them also!
gosh! craps!
feel like fainting!~
so tired!
its not easy to be promotor lah!

2009-08-23T02:45:00.002+08:00

studying in mac now. chionging for the last 2 paper.
yup. pharmacology! my killer paper.
super giddy after looking at the medication names. HELP!

ytd studying with gladys tan. haha. didnt study much. (:
chit-chating..
we need some time to sit down, look around.relax.. enjoy surrounding. take my time to do things.
instead of like rushing to be in time..
no enjoyment at all.

Thoughts for the day
Wat will i do if i got one week of holiday, $1.5 k of allowance, A motorbike for transport.
i will go underwater world, zoo, museum, visit every part of singapore.
i will go and stay in 5 stars hotel for 2 night and enjoy all the facilities!
go camp in the east coast park and have a portable BBQ for 2 nights
thn go hotel 81 for one night!
go to malaysia- pubket!
go do makeover for one day
ice-skating, rollar blading, fishing, go to farm,
HORSE RIDDING!
go to all factories to see how they work..
at night thn go see stars!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha
haha, i think still got a lot of time to do a lot of things.

dreaming. i know wont come true de lah. haha

2009-08-18T23:56:00.002+08:00

my friend told me that one of my colleague got SLE.
systemic lupus erythematous: chronic and potentially fatal autoimmunee disease characterized by remissions and exacerbation.
currently in MICU. i donnoe what the "M" stand for.

she is one of the few best EN that i worked with.
she's very sweet and helps me a lot.
we eat and joke together. work together and whenever we are assigned to the same cubicle, we so happy lah. changed bedsheet tgt. i very sad.
im going down to see her soon.
i hope things will be better.....

it hurts.

2009-08-16T23:51:00.003+08:00

visit my father.. as usual.
bad news. his right leg is swollen again.
worse than before.
look kind of like abrasion, red patches.
broken skin in between the toes.
walking around the nursing home bare footed.
he got diabetes you know.
cant just walk around not wearing any shoes.

i know, if this continue, anything poke into his soles or bottom of the foot.
that's the end. risk of amputation.

the nurse is like...
"maybe we can let him wear socks if he wan"
but it doesnt solve the problem mah! he will have risk of falls if he wear socks loh.
and it doesnt help to prevent any injury to the foot.
useless suggestion
they only apply aqueous cream to it: moisturizing the skin
IT DOESNT HELP LAH CAN!!
worse thing that he told me "haven let the doctor see yet. the doctor is not here."
this is not a small matter to a diabetes patient loh. and the edema is like there for 3-4 days liao.

it hurts but i cant do anything!!
he don listen to advise. no matter wat i say.
i wonder.
is it better if i donnoe anything about medical than i know something abt it.
but yet i cant do anything?
just praying that the edema will just recover.

His condition make me realise one fact.
He's getting older each day, his health is deterioring.
His heart is not functioning well enough to maintain good circulation.

:( :( :( :( :(

2009-08-14T17:42:00.002+08:00

im so happy!! i got my results for my video presentation!! Cheers to my group member.. e-lin and hongyan.. LOL... we got 95/100 lah!! haha! im the fatty patient. if got the chance, thn i will upload here.. (:

haix, school things
three more modules left... Nursing science 1 and Nursing science 2 and pharmacology.
the killer paper is ns1 and pharmacology loh..
just heard from my friend something.. ya, its irritating.
the so called "competitor" of me. as in she make me her "competitor".
im neutral.
my teacher showed the class our results for NS2
and ya, i got higher than her.. by only 0.2 loh!!
and my friend said her face changed when she saw that. -.-
i donnoe lah!~ weird. Thank God i didnt sit beside her. if not, wooo... cold war..

hai.
nxt week exam.. no mood to study yet. -.-
help me..

2009-08-12T15:43:00.002+08:00

my sister kana quarantined. -.- by her school..
my downsyndrome sister..
very sian. -.- have to stay at home with her, cant go school early. maybe still need to skip lessons..

heard news from my elder sister tat my downsyndrome classmate(coz of him thn kana quarantined) just passed away coz of h1n1.

sars also quarantined now also. 0.0
its miserable.

2009-08-09T22:56:00.002+08:00

got lots of things that i wan to say. but donnoe how to say...

well, i admit that im ....

straight forward
emotional
a little apathyy
talkative
stubborn
short-temper

and i can talk a lot of things with someone if i can get along well with them

ya included sharing the deepest things in my heart. as in my thoughts, opinions and etc.

i don really bother with those people i don really like, well, not that kind of like hatred toward them. but i just cant click when them loh.

to be honest, i hate poly life to the max now

don ask me why. its irritating to talk abt it. childish, competitive and irritating. yup. only the few of them not all.

i really missed my working life. where is my ward 58! my general surgery ward. i missed wearing that sgh uniform..

really, i loved the job scopes of enrolled nurse. do u know that? why ppl don understand? yup, only that small ITE cert. but isnt it that its important to do something like u really like?

i hate dealing with medications and etc...

do u understand.

though its just a ITE cert, but i loved it. though the pay is low, but i can do with it.

at least, im proud of being a EN...

hai, its true that nursing needs at least a diploma in order to get u somewhere out there... hmmm, ya...

just wan to nag a little bit..

2009-08-06T08:28:00.003+08:00

oh no, im like getting more and more lazy each day.
study.. aiyo, sian lah! :( well, i will still study de

why poly life so... i donnoe. honestly i don like it.
yes, its the people as well as those irritating modules also.
time to take things easy
cant be bother abt wat others say.
some time they ought to mind their own business and stop create problem for others.
ya, i willl tryyyyy to like both of them again. try to become normal friends.
bootlickers.

live with it likhoon.
this is the reality of life.
ppl tends to do something and boot lick others. -.-
irritating.
irritating. irritating

trying to be happy.
stop ur nonsenses.

2009-07-30T22:54:00.001+08:00

i shall start my diet again from tml onward!
no more fast food and fry stuffs
aim to slim another 15 kgs...
(:

it will never come true.

2009-07-30T00:33:00.001+08:00

alright. i know
it will never come true.
never.
stop dreaming.
not the one.

2009-07-28T19:01:00.002+08:00

im glad that i actually lost 11kgs in total.

but...
im depressed... i think i need to lose another 14 more kgs to be just nice..

this showed that im really.... super fat last time........

2009-07-27T17:51:00.002+08:00

his english is just to "chim" for me to understand his thoughts.
just 2 different worlds.

i doubt that God will build one rainbow bridge that will connect both of us together...
maybe it just wont happen.. foolish thinking bah Tan Li Khoon!!!!!!!!!

counting my blessings..
pressing onward for my goal..

listening ear

2009-07-27T00:34:00.001+08:00

i need one listening ear..
no need both. only one will do...

i need to vent out my feelings and thoughts!
if not i will die because of stress...

im not happy.

tired of being a student?

2009-07-26T01:37:00.002+08:00

if u were to ask me if i love being a student, my answer is NO
if u were to ask me if i love working life, my answer is NO AGAIN!

wah
life is full of ups and down.
problems, betrayers and ya.
will you know when the next problem will arise after u settle the current one?
haix.

i still got 3 more sems to go before graduate.
hmmm, very fast hor... hai. i donnoe how to take the stress.

what i can do is to encourage myself to go further and higher!
JIAYOU WOR! CHEN LI JUN!

2009-07-13T01:11:00.002+08:00

starting skol in another 7 hours time. -.-
i like schooling when im working.
i like working when im schooling.
^help me to love school more, or just a bit more?

my temper are getting worse. ya.
hot temper.

people grow old, either more mature or still childish or worse thn before.

cherish friendship? i think people are taking it for granted....
eh, i think im one of them.
hai.

mixed feeling. donnoe how to say..

cellgroups..
friendships..
people..
bonding..
initiative..
encouragement..
love..
care..
concern..

** going the extra mile**

hai

My own thoughts and feelings

2009-07-11T01:55:00.002+08:00

i didnt know i so long never blog liao wor..

mine is just a normal blog. i don't know how to use beautiful words and standard english to write a blog. a blog that i understand only.

lots of thoughts and mixed-feelings..
where should i start leh?

first, i finally shed off 9kg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
still got 11kgs more to go.
but my weight doesnt seem to go the the left anymore. hmmm.....
anywell, im quite happy abt that 9kgs liao, (:

hopping around to others' blog is not my interest at all and i don't have the extra time to do it.
i think i become more of a self-centered person liao. *bad point*

life become a normal routine to me, rather thn a enjoyment with meaning and purpose.
less emotional *bad thing*

i recently know a lady who are a volunteer in YMCA. i wan to join her. i have been finding volunteer work around. sending my applications, giving my contact number to them but none reply. haix. YMCA, maybe this will add some highlight to my life.

i made a wrong decision that ended up a burden. because of it, i lost the passion. so wat if i regretted. A burden in my heart that i think nobody will ever understand. even sometime when i try to share with someone close, their answer will just shut me off. wat can i do? ... i don dare to do it anymore...

recently i just concluded that guys cant be fully trust. even those whom look trustworthy or always been trustworthy. maybe not just guys bah, girls also. this make BGR relationship even more scary. choose the wrong person, love the wrong person, trust the wrong person at the wrong time, wrong place = WRONG
this BIG WRONG mistake will result in disappointment, saddness, hatred.
even liking a person or having the *interest* in a person will still be hurt in the end isn't it?
i used to think that it "SWEET" to be in a relationship nxt time when im older (21). but even if im 21 yrs old now, *offically* allow to have BF. but it a scary thing to me rather thn happy thing bah. indeed, mindset changes as u grow older and after facing so many things happening around u. craps..

i think that singlehood is the best for me now.

i don dare to make any wrong decision........ that will result with regrets.

hope for a change.

2009-06-02T11:58:00.002+08:00

went study with vivian yesterday at buddy hoagies..
overheard some church people talking behind me.
feel like a sandwich as the place is full of laughters and not suitable to study.
anyway,i heard about how they actually view their cellgroup and wat God have spoke to them and etc.. wat they hope to see in their life and things.......

i feel so inferior.
really.. im wonder wat on earth have i been doing..
i feel that im just a christian in name loh.
i donnoe wat my future really holds for me.

tan likhoon, so wat if u good grade in ite and poly so far?
it doesn't really mean anything at all.
its the values and things in me that counts!
do i really have good values and things in me that i should be proud abt...

all along i thought, finally finally.
finally have a breakthrough in studies and finally can get good grades.
but so. -.-
it doesnt really mean anything can!
really nothing.
inferior inferior.

i spent some time thinking about this issue.
if im been looking for a christian guy, a guy who is man of God and faithful.
i should have the same qualities too..
and i feel that i shouldnt be thinking about this things liao.
coz no qualities in me..............
inferior....

if compare me tgt with her, of coz she is the best choice.

2009-05-29T23:42:00.002+08:00

PDA is not a good idea.
waste of time and efforts, esp for the utimately idiot like me. so sianx
got a lot of things to do.
well, this is not wat i wan anyway.PDA, so wat if np is the first institute that starts the PDA.
so many problems which i hated the most.
the risks of all the informations lost is like a nightmare to me.
hatred. -.-

i just finished my subcutanous injection.. haha. yup!
and teacher said my plus point is my confidence loh! haha
Thank God that i got subcutanous.. haha.. really that is one of my confidence de. not IV de haha...
Thank God

time to really study hard for my common test! all the way!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-29T00:21:00.002+08:00

hmm, common test coming soon. in 2 week times.
i haven really start my revision.
no stress yet leh..
the worse thing of all is that im only can study in mac .. my sister got skol thn how to go out study.
haix. sianx... wat to do... God help me.
give me stress please.
i need to stress a lot thn can study liao.
haix.
no stress no gain no results.

i getting sick and tired of skol liao.
those friends sucks
oh come on...
haix. super. esp my class.
copy cats and fakers
sianx.
why like that

saw my ite lecturers today.
im super duper happy lah..
she the one who asked me go for WSS last time yet i rejected her.
why i reject her.
i super super regret....
hai.

i miss ite..
at least they are not fake...

2009-05-21T11:37:00.002+08:00

oh well, it have been a long time since i last blog.
busy with tests and poly.
study til i don noe wat is the joy of study liao
stress is the key factor to my studies.
don enjoy myself at all
i wan to quit the clinic job cause i cant cope with studies liao
but when i somehow hint my lady boss, she got a big reaction sia.
super scary til i donnoe how to tell her.
working in a clinic is it a wrong step to do in the first place?
i donnoe lah.

i had a dream. ytd. very weird til i donnoe how to describe that kind of dream...

2009-05-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

week 8 is my exams liao. why does it seems like ... im not stress..
i don like it.

2009-05-02T23:34:00.002+08:00

just called my friend... my colleague..
she told me that the whole ward is empty! HOW I WISH..
she said that the whole ward is preparing for the outbreak of mexico flu...
and ya. if u can rmb, my ward is isolation ward.
the ward that take care of SARS pts in 2003...
and ya, again... mexico flu..
when i heard the news, im like...
if i still working... if....

honestly speaking, i wan to be part of them.
i wan to work with my colleagues and take care of the infected pts...
i think, this is wat i want in life..
one of the highlights in nursing life to take care of patients....
frontline, direct contact to them, to the disease...
i will feel so proud and honored lah!
the feeling of scared, anxious and worried of coz... hmmmm...
i really wan to be with them.. really...
i wan to be part of the team... the healthcare team....

Of coz!i do not wan the mexico flu to spread to singapore, putting my friends at risk.

2009-05-01T00:05:00.004+08:00

it takes at least 2 hours of nap in order to gave adequate rest that we required

it takes about one hour to watch a tv show or to cook a meal

it takes about half an hour to a meal, ot to take a shower

it takes about 15 mins to choose the clothes we want to wear that day or just mainly wait for bus arrival

it takes about 7 mins inside the washroom, or to wash the dishes

it takes about 3 mins

it takes about 1 min to take pulse rate

it takes about 30 secs to switch on computer

it takes about 15 secs to load a computer program

it takes 7 secs to find my hse keys

it takes 3 secs to make a decision, a yess or a not

it takes 1 sec to make a move

im so stress! have been sitting in the mac for almost like 2 hours..

i trying to understand the pharmacology. but i don understand the questions at all. i donnoe what is it toking abt. oh man, two weeks of school lah. wat am i doing?

projects and projects, test, quiz now and then.

i really have no idea wat im studying lah..

2 hours just wasted like that. feel so useless. -.-

no longer happy at all. not happy.

i used to enjoyed my work as in being EN.

everything so fine. and really enjoyed just being EN, a junior nurse.

SN is too much for me to bear. i just don like the workload to study all the medications.

medication errors is gonna get me into trouble one day, i guess.

2009-04-21T23:35:00.002+08:00

oh, this is crazy. i donnoe how to pass this sem... the book is so thick! and its like.... oh man...
am i going to study that big big book..???
the skol forced us to buy books! so expensive! craps. another 100 plus gone again...... total need to spend at least 150 dollars for that one term ,,,,
oh ya, that crazy NSL book cost 19.10!! so expensive lah. as if inside got diamond pictures.... -.-

haix. my teachers is so sian.
super sian. hai yo
how to survive.....
mysister just enrolled into a bridging course in account in SIM.
her lessons in on monday, wed, sat and sun! .....
haix..... sad for her as she have to do homeworks and never touch books for ages....
haix..... i also have to be super committed to the family liao. outings, meetup, projects meeting have to cut cut cut...

i really miss all my ite friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my colleagues as well..........
hai........ time is not on my side............................................ :(((((((

2009-04-16T02:42:00.003+08:00

happiness, joy, excitment, anxiety, disappointment, sadness and bleah bleah bleah.....
these are the ingredients that we have to face in our life.

its tough living in singapore right?
time, work, studies, stress, money.

if i am given a choice to choose where to live, i would choose simple life.
maybe go back to last time where ppl will be happy with 3 meals... maybe one in a while meats on the table bah.
i wan to go back to endau rompin.....

why is it so difficult to be happy? as in really free the joy from the bottom of my heart.
i don wan to be adult lah. so stress....

2009-04-14T00:23:00.002+08:00

first day of my holiday! monday!
sit on my sofa, watching taiwan love drama.
that "Min Zong Zu Din Wo Ai Ni" that one. ya, came out very long liao but my sister bought it at $10 only recently.

characters:
1. one kind girl, always get bully. small in size. no PR.
2. one bad guy, always argue with that girl. handsome, smart, rich, bad temper. got a gf.
3. one kind guy who will pity that girl, end up fall in love with that girl.
4. no.2 guy's gf, pretty, elegant, sweet and high class.

two guys will fight for that girl lah. that that gf will come in and scold lah, do all sort of tricky things lah. thn that bad guy will bully and bully that girl til she cry lah.
aiya, in this kind of show, the "kind" girl will have a lots of crying scenes lah.

but all this wont happen in reality lah.
all the girls will wish and pray for their love life to be something like that. *i used to be one of those*
but when i think back now, it kind of silly lah.
stop hoping to be that "kind" "pitiful" girl and wait for that "so-called" prince charming to appear.. it just wont happen.

my father back home, for a week.
he really old liao.
62 yrs old.
he don't wan to go back to nursing home when we ask him if he wan to stay or go back.
i realised that he hoping to stay at hm with us.
he nv stay at home for 9 years liao wor. as in really stay with us.

how to be truely filial?

2009-04-11T11:14:00.002+08:00

Dr phang, director of nursing from np came on my last day of attachment.
saw me tgt with another friend. haha, that china guy named jiaxin. hmmm.
again, first thought that came to my mind is " does she rmb me?"
and she continue to ask us to tell her one case.
oh well, ya, i found one case for her loh.
haix. feel so weird.
not anxious at all leh. maybe i spoken to director of nursing of SGH before bah.
as in. during the JCI period.

ONE OF MY FAVOURITE NURSES CAME TO TODAY
got two patient need wound inspection by the wound nurse.
and she is sister Tay Ai Choo!!
she is so cool lah, since last time. lol.
she is so knowledgeable loh. and this is the first time she taught us things loh. yes!
learnt a lot loh....

ya.. i got some dreams....
after i get my dip in nursing, i will got for adv dip.. maybe oncology/palliative..
thn i will go for my degree course...
after all have fulfill,
i wan to become either a palliative nurse, wound nurse or clinical instructor..... :D

2009-04-11T10:00:00.003+08:00

calvin chng kairen, me, joseph lam boxiong

wah. I didn’t realize that I didn't blog for so long liao. Haha. I guess I will be blogging more often bah after my attachment in sgh coz I got my own laptop. Well.Zhiwei and Gladys said that its notebook not laptop coz mine is only 10’inch big. Lol, whatever lah.I know my purpose of using laptop that is to do project :D it super sianz when others have one and you have to use theirs to do things. And as u know it super kind of difficult to do project without laptop ya?
Its my attachment period now and I'm currently now in w73. Its my 3rd time in this ward okies. I learnt something new wor. Got this guy who is in the same lecture as me, my impression of him is that he don study in class at all, always pon class and ya every teacher will run after him. Amazingly he is in the same attachment group as me. Wah, this guy really amazed me loh. He is super serious, responsible and super on&steady guy lah. He is gentle when taking bgm for a person. I told him” wah, u are so gentle lah. Aiyo” he replied me “Must be gentle mah, later pain leh.” Lol. Both of the guy friends whom I work with, super gentle lah,and serious. They will work overtime de loh. I bet they won’t work OT unless needed to. But I'm just amazed and impressed by him.
I think that guys who are serious with their work are very charming. Even if they don’t have the looks, they look super handsome more than those who have the outer looks. :D I think that he is good.
Oh man, it seems like it getting more and more ppl know that I'm a ex-EN before. Is it a good thing? Hmm, really. People will tend to treat u better or with more respect and trust that u will do your work. :D yup. But I feel weird. Hmm. So happy to see my ite friends in nyp lah. They are all doing well. How I wish that I'm with them. I will be much happier I guess.
I got back my attachment result liao. Haha. So happy. :D

wish to live a simple life

2009-03-14T00:00:00.002+08:00

back from endau rompin adventure trip.
it belong to some wulu part of malaysia but is belong to one of the malaysia nature parks ya.

journey began when i reached skol at 630am, start to know some new friends.
kind of boring in the first place coz i donnoe them at all.
but ice-breaker was fun. lol.
all of them is so sporty lah.

the challenges that we faced is actually the long distance.
have to sit in 4 wheel mountain car for 1 hr, and super unsteady de lah.
meaning its super jumpy coz the road is uneven. big and small holes, super dusty (free foundation) and it rains halfway through the journey lah can! splashing the muddy orange colour on the window and the air con suddenly stop working halfway. kill me lah please. LOL

went for water rafting. ya, fun! i tot the water is quite deep but end out only up to my knee level!! haha. im short ya. lol

night got confident walk in the jungle.
i wore jacket with cap and long pants with covered shoes. fearing that leeches will drop on my head and bite me!
and i saw fireflies!! 2 fireflies? lol its super nice lah, u can nv see that in singapore at all de loh.

nxt day, got trekking to the fountain and blue lagoon. wah! lots of leeches swinging their tails at u trying to tell u that "hey man, here come my food!" i saw them crawling into my shoes, up my pants, trying to squeeze into my socks and suck my blood! oh u horrible creature!
disgusted at the sight of it loh. oh, the first instinct that came to my mind is to get tat stupid thing out of my sight. suddenly filled with courage to pull out that digusting creature using my bare hands. oh man, please lah. where got ppl say "hey wait! use lighter or spinkle salt on it" haha, everybody just pull out lah! lol!
ya, we walked at least 20 km to and fro loh!. PLEasE CLAP!! *CLAP CLAP*

ya, that night we played games. quite fun! but however one IRRITIATING BEETLE FLEW OVER AND BITE MY NOSE! i threw my whole spectacle on the floor loh! yea, it super pain!

3rd day, woke up and went to toilet to do small business.
went inside the cubicle, close the door, wat shocked me is that there is a super ultra big lizard at least 15 cm long behind the door. wah, almost heart attack on spot. ran out immediately! lol, at least 20 times bigger than our normal house lizard. -.-

bamboo cooking for lunch! super nice! LOL!
played chop chilli chop chop chop with friends. super fun! laughed until stomach pain? lol!
went to see the place where they showed us how they catch the animals (animal traps)
hmmm. ya after that went to the hotel loh.
ya nothing much lah. haha.
:D

end of story! my second overseas trip? ya. malaysia again. and going again with seventh!:D

the only thing i learnt is that simplity is beauty.
2 days without network coverage, no electricity until 630pm to 830am.
surrounded by nature.
i didnt think abt drill com and etc back here in singapore.
ya, it a superstress society. lots of things to settle after i came back.
everyday is filled with problems, or rather things that will disturb me the whole day de.

10th coy 3rd contignent
19th coy 22nd contignent
it drill competition loh!
haix.
i donnoe lah. feel that i didnt do much at all.
how?? hai.
bless us Lord. Please.

2009-02-19T17:25:00.002+08:00

Roar! tmr is my pharmaco exam.

everything doesnt seem to go inside my head yet

when doing the past year exams paper,

i realised that there is a lot of things i do not know loh.

worse part of all is that it included math calculation.

wah, my weakest subject of all.

help me!~!~~!~

kind of stress up liao.

sat also got exam.

-.- wah "nice" one.

Thank God

2009-02-09T14:16:00.002+08:00

Thank God for placing me in w58.
where i did different kind of dressings and have the chance to practice my skills.
my practical test tmr. ya, STO, removal of staples, simple/complicated dressing, dressing of the drain.
i will not comment on how the teacher teach here nor how the teaching system work.
afterall, they are still experienced nurses.
and of coz im not as skillful as them
but maybe as time passed and daily work become a routine where ppl tends to take shortcut whenever possible, its easy to the wrong ways of doing things in hospital.
really thankful to my teacher, she said that never learn the wrong ways that they do in hospital. do wat the school teach you.

last week, im tempted to cheat in mock test.
knowing the answers before the test.
God reminded me something that said by me few years ago
"i will cheat in test if im given the chance to do so, but in ite, coz of the strict rules and checking, cheating is not possible at all" --> somebody in poly told me that lecturer allow them to *****, close both eyes, went out of the class and come back half an hr later.

ya, i realised my mistakes and rmb the purpose of coming to poly.
not to cheat but to really study.
really feel so so so so so wrong loh.
i feel super horrible inside at that moment.
im sorry.
i did my questions in the end.
10 mcqs. -.- made me woke up at 430 am to study all the way til 3pm-.- for the test.

2009-02-02T00:44:00.003+08:00

im down with flu!~ ya, really. oh. faint. -.-
i hate projects be it individual or group.
they are killing me.
i haven start with my revision yet. its coming in 19 days time.
i couldnt find the time to do all the things that i wan.
aap practical test this tues.
its seems to be very difficult.
wed got the irritating presentation nursing research.
im stress up, im working this monday and thurs.
and got a mock cm bio test this thurs.
look like im going to have a tough week

my 21st bday

2009-01-25T22:28:00.002+08:00

IM A ADULT LIAO! DON NEED ANY MORE GUARDIAN SIGNATURE LE!!
happy birthday to me!:D

Thank God for the good weather!

enjoyed myself a lot wor!!
ya, a lot of super dirty photos, my friends uploaded in facebook le!
very disgusting de. :D

anyway, still fun!

thanks for coming. ya, appreciated it a lot wor! :D
its the most fun birthday party i ever had for myself!! haha.
i feel that i become a real sandwich after 12 plus.
with chilli, tomato, coleslaw, mago, honey and etc.
total stink like rotten veg.

i really forgotten that ppl will use the ribbon spray and the disgusting snow after the birthday song *normal*
coz IM TOTALLY ENGROSSED ON THE BIRTHDAY SONG!!!!
i loved birthday song!!!!

thanks for all the gifts.
its rocks man!!
i will upload those pictures soon.
i loved it lotssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!

after taking taxi hm, go mac with regina, tsz en, mun kidd and sean as well as alvin sim.
haha, OPEN PRESENT TIME!!!!!
the only words that came out from my mouth is WAH WAH WAH WAH WAH WAH WAH WAH WAH WAH WAH WAH WAH WAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THE GIFTS IS SUPER DUPER ULTIMATE GREAT LAH!!!
oh man! really! loved it lots!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~
its like so so so so so so amazing.

after that play some stupid games by alvin.
OH disgusting to the ultimate.
er xin is the word okies. yucks!
coke with lots of salts, mixed with either curry or bbq sauce
oh, i will only mix those things tgt when i don wan to eat again loh!
thn expect me to drink the disgusting drink.
oh, tsz en and regina face turned red when they drink loh.
thank GOD i only kana one time.
mun kidd's drink is mixed by hands of tsz en with one big drop of bbq sause in ice lemon tea and pepper? oh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! er xin!!!!!
the last paper to finish the games is regina! haha!!
er xin loh. eeeeee

thanks thanks,
i loved my 21st bday!:D

2009-01-15T22:44:00.002+08:00

another week passed.
我生病了!
but feeling better liao:D
hmmm, this week are filled with blessing wor!!
a lot a lot!
more than what i think i should ever deserve.
God, indeed you are so wonderful to me. :D

10 more days to my birthday le.
hmmm, my birthday wish??
eh,
1st! become woman of GOD!
2nd! always be happy. :D

Choose Your Direction in Life. Right turn/Left turn

2009-01-08T22:37:00.004+08:00

hmmm,

"falling in love is great,
falling out of love is pain.
suffering is loving him in the dark
happiness is glancing at him in the secret."

above is just a part of a poem i wrote when im younger. 小时候不懂事。哈哈
anyway, seem so real now. NOT TO ME OF COZ. I DIDNT ADMIRE ANYONE SECRETLY NOW. YA, THANK GOD.

this is kind things seem to be addiction. hmmm
esp at young age. and its actually involved the whole mind and soul and efforts in a relationship not just words alone.

2 of my friends cried coz of BGR.
my friend quarrelled with her fiance coz of something
she cried.
she is super sad.
i feel that.

my friend, dated for 3 years. broke up recently.
i saw her cried.
i can see from her look that she is very upset.
i can feel that she missed her boyfriend a lot
i can feel that pain in her heart.

because of this, 我对爱情有更多的感想。
somehow, im glad that i don need to face all this problem.
the church is right. relationship is not easy to handle.
even my friends so old liao still got BGR problem at times.
wat more abt the younger kids?
do crying help in a relationship?
is hurt, pain, disappointment, unhappiness the elements in a relationship?
maybe at times lah.
but look at the future, the Mr Right is there waiting for you.
a man that God placed in your life. a man who never fails you and truely love you.
it's just the timing bah.
that why we are asked to wait patiently for the one, cultivate good values, become woman of God that shine.
the bible said use your time (during youth) to serve Him. yup.
true right, i wont get hurt anyway by doing that:D

no need to waste time, efforts, commitments in things that wont last.

Ya, if that guy is the right man that God have placed for you, YOU WILL JUST KNOW THAT HE IS THE ONE EVENTUALLY. God will tell you. :D

2009-01-07T23:46:00.002+08:00

School started this week.
still OKies lah:D
but the timing kind of stupid.
anyway,
ANYWAY ONE OF MY MODULE I GOT 39.5/40 LEH!!
haha!! YUPPY!!
i super happy lah can. can can
share the joy with me ya.
God U never forsake though im unfaithful to you at times.

lots of verses to think abt.

"seek first the kingdom of God and all this shall be added to you"
"kingdom of God? All this?"
Thought for a moment.

almost 21 yrs of living. hmmm.

just now my sister bought the newspaper.
got one articles talks abt putting "chip" into the person brain. the purpose is to motivate sexual drives. oh come on, kind of stupid right?
it actually reminded me of the end times of the age.
Jesus coming back soon.
is it a good news to you or a bad news to you?
good news so that we will not be living on this earth but to meet God Himself?
ya. this is a good news.
but to me, its more of a bad news. a warning. harshed truth. disappointment with my life.
so wat if i got saved but not my loved ones.
am i really faithful this while?
will God recognise me a not?
will God say the things that i wan to hear? " my good and faithful servant."
so wat if i got good grades in skol now?
THE PURPOSE OF LIVING HERE IS NOT JUST TO GET GOOD GRADES!! ITS MY COMMISSION!!!! but did i fulfill that?
i feel that i don have the face to face Him,
the feeling is just like trying to find a hole and hide away from Him.
i wan my family and friends to get save.
i got this desire..............
time to do something.

2008-12-24T22:42:00.003+08:00

amazing amazing.
我很开心。原来我有很多朋友在医院咯！
it is inter-linked de.that person is my friend friend or that girl is my colleague gf and etc or preceptor. HAHA!! its really so so so so amazing lah.
因为这样，作工很愈快。没有烦恼。跟朋友有很多话题说。
就像老朋友，认识很久一样咯，谈天说地。超好玩！
i think 2 weeks of attachment is never enough at all.
i got more than three yr3 prcp student friends in the ward loh. ya i just realized i know a lot of ppl, as in friends last time. haha.
wah,
its like 朋友满天下. cool hor!! :DD

counting down to my 21 birthday..... one month time.... C:

2008-12-21T03:12:00.003+08:00

jian dan jiu si mei

agreed totally:D

don need to use 1 hr to make urself pretty

but inner beauty that is important. :D

guys who can play piano really very charming:D:D

hehe. really, i like it coz i donnoe how to play

just watch movie with them, twilight.

wah!~ cool!~ charming.

im happy that joshua and keith came.

super happy as well as tedmond! really. wah!~

Let Go, Let God.

indeed, im afraid to become a staff nurse.

new update: i got A+ for 4 modules and B for CMbio.

Thank God that i have passed all:D

blessed with good memory.

ya, im happy with the results except the B.

coz the module is taught by that teacher who i don like.

not hate but i chose to ignore him.

he looked down on ppl, i don like it.

i studied hard to prove him wrong. but yet i got a B for his module.

hmmm..

ya, reflection done.

i shouldnt study coz of him.

though he seems to be one of my "motivation".

i should study coz i know i need to do it, study well do it well.

do it all for God.

last week bro rx said that when is the period u truely lived.

ya, that sermon spoke to me a lot.

answers to my doubts whether if i loved Him before.

so what about me?

hmmm, 1st yr of christian life.

sars period

sec 4.

1st yr of serving in gb

1 yr in ite.

i gonna think hard. pray hard. study hard. work hard.

maybe after 4.5 yrs of bond with sgh

i will give time to go out to the nations to do wat i ought to do bah

i donnoe. maybe.

2008-12-17T22:19:00.002+08:00

1st day of attachment:
putting on my new nursing uniform (NP) *so white*
feeling very weird.
walking the same path that i used to walk last time
going to the same block (Blk5) but different ward. SO WEIRD!!
really. going back to MY OLD ward to see my colleagues with my new nursing uniform.
weird. everybody are busy to entertain me.
just like me last time. rushing with the time. running all over the place trying to get my things done, good and well. sending patients. waiting, bathing, taking report.
AND JOKE WITH MY BELOVED FRIENDS.

really sad. i missed working suddenly.
i can do things without restrictions.
sad.

in my ward now, got one NP yr 3 student super action wor.
i cant stand her on the first day itself.
year 3 and yr 1. yr are all nerds. oh man. that kind of feeling can.
yes, she didnt know im EX-EN. so she so action.
arghh!~~
im giving ducolax and fleet enema to 2 different pts.
well
"oh you are giving fleet and ducolax huh? im not free leh. u go and ask a En assess you can?"
"have you done it before??"
me:" yes, more than you."
she came in.
" oh so how ar? competent to do it alone already? not bad right??" *anger*
EN: " of course she can do it mah. she passed out as EN leh."
SHE GAVE ME A SHOCK LOOK!

haha, i cant imagine that one. so shiok!
end up came and tok to me. watever u call that lah.
MA LU LAH! Action action more lah. sickening. very angry. but i kept quiet throughout.

saw 3 of my NYP students friends PRCP in the same ward as me. haha. great! very fun.
coz got them. ahah:D and few of my EN friends. haha, everybody asked me.
"you looked familiar, we worked b4 right? oh ya, u are ite that time, how come u yr 1 now. wah not bad ar. u promoted quite fast ar. "
well, God's plan :D His blessings.

"chiong'ing" to do all the skills asap but this week. yes, all the yr 1 skills. very tired.
anyway, i almost finish 1/3 within 3 days. tml have to relax abit loh.hehe. :D
i will finish 3/4 but this week.
so likhoon JIAYOU WOR YOU CAN DO IT DE!! JIAYOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

u know wat? IM SUPER HAPPY CAN!!
please share my joy with me. :D
i got A+ for 3 of my modules for common tests~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH YEAH YEAH!
i didnt know i can get A+ leh!! really.
still got 2 more modules results yet to know. i hope the same. :D
ya, He always blessed me with good memory to study. really.
He answered my prayers that i made in 2005 "O" lvl that yr.

2008-12-13T23:48:00.001+08:00

i found the answer

i tink i know wat to do

2008-12-13T01:32:00.002+08:00

forceps - to remind you to pick the good qualities in others

stethoscope - to remind you to be sensitive to listen to others

tourniquet - to remind you to be flexible

bandage - to remind you to list down your blessings everyday

thermometer - to remind you to control your temper

plaster - to remind you to stick to God and everything will work out

not from me, but took from some website last time.

quite meaningful.

did you ever ask yourself wat is love?

not that kind of boy-girl relationship love.

but the love of others, friends and kins.

im asking myself if i have that love.

world without love, meaningless.

thn if a person donnoe true meaning of love leh?

2008-12-06T03:45:00.002+08:00

FERRY WHEEL!!

i promised i will have a try at least once!!

ya, with my future MR :D *NODDING*

my dream!! haha, and singapore cable car.

haha, only fews know wat i wish/hope. haha

haha, just watch sakura cardcaptor movie 2!!

i loved it man, sakura also one of my favourtie cartoon!!

haha, its abt sakura confessed to syaoran FINALLY!

i watched it once before, i tink when im sec 3? 5 yrs ago?

SO TOUCHED!!! :D

im so happy that im able to find it on youtube!

YES, ferry wheel. the BIGGEST in the world

wahh!!~~~ isn't it cool. *smiling smiling*

haha

im working now in clinic as clinic assistant. shh, supposed to be a secret.

haha,

and guessed wat? amazing!!

the doctor (my boss)

he got 4 (four) sons,

3 out of 4, studying medical in NUS Duke now.

YES!! 3 medical students currently!!

hahahahaahahahaha

haha

family of medical line!!

hahahaaha.

they will become doctors one day

who know i might be working with one of them?

*fat hope*

haha!! but its so cool right. haha.

there's a purpose why i work there lah!! haha

that is to

study pharmcology!!! haha.

one of my weakest module.

doctor handwriting really like

WORMS

cant understand at all. haha

but anyway, getting to it kind of. haha.

JIAYOU BAH!!

2008-11-28T22:12:00.002+08:00

disappointment is the first "longest" english word that i learnt in primary skol.
i have to act the word out with my friend. ya. i think is primary 2 that yr.
left a deep impression ever since thn.

Common test just over. yeah. i should be happy right.
maybe?
well. donnoe.
i tink im becoming more apathy.
ya. but only will feel something when it really hurts.
haix.

i wan to be busy. so that i will not tink of those things.

disappointed.

2008-11-18T18:30:00.002+08:00

im blogging in skol right now okie!!
waiting for yuityeng to go study tgt in skol library.
well, tomolo got test. teacher said it is easy but i don think so.
hmmm, next week got common tests.
so stress up.
ya, i saw the year 2 common tests time table. MORE STRESS
2papers in one day.
oh man, how am i going to survive??

yup, encouraged me a lot. :D
thanks daniel and jacelyn. *don know if u are reading*
a change in perspective liao.

i read those QT sms that my meh meh sent me previously. the whole one yr.
saved inside my hp.
Love and lOve and loVe.
love is patient love is kind.
love the people around u
and many more.
looking up and not looking down
looking forward and not staying in the past.
God will give me the energy to move on, to carry on.

ya, not a easy week for me
lack of something throughout this whole week.
and i know what is that.

PUSH ON
Quiet time Messages

2008-11-15T19:43:00.000+08:00

2008-10-31T18:41:00.004+08:00

today is sport and wellness. areobics is fun
enjoyed myself a lot except for running 800m after a long time.
really, me and my friends liked it a lot. maybe just the first session.

as a 20 yrs old girl,
there is a lot of things that i CAN do
and DON'T WAN to do
why why?
i wan to focus on studies too.
wanna score super well and top if i can.
this few months,
have been asking myself, why i do all this things for wat?
i don have enough time for myself liao not even to study and do project.
And the ONLY reason that i gave myself is that i wanna serve Him,
that why no matter wat i still do.
my studies now is no good.
a lot of things to catch up and revise.
now is wk 3 liao. wk 5 hand in project. week 6-7 common tests.
always end skol at 6pm or maybe earlier.
i don like it loh.
if that is the case, i shouldnt do it liao right.
it seems like not everybody enjoys it.
why not just withdraw?
i guess everybody will like it.
its not that i give up
but i cant do anything if they don wan.
it just wont works if that's the case!

the love in doing drill is not force
but really commit and love it.

its not like last time when victor sir took us for drill
i missed those times.
when i still a girl who don need to worry abt anything.
a simple girl

2008-10-30T17:18:00.002+08:00

wah! almost 3 weeks in my new skol!!
ya, i don like the facilities though. haix.
i don like the high staircases of 75 steps that i need to climb almost everyday.
i don like the toilets. very old.
i don like the slope either. tiring.
i don like the lecture halls that the tables keeps droppin on its own. AND it's stinked!
i don like the atm machines that seems so far away from my block.
BUT!!
i like the library. its quiet :D and got all the books that i need.:D
i like the sushi, taste nice.
i like the aerobics room, air-conditioned. :D

overall, still okies lah. surviving!~ haha

its the MODULES THAT i wanna cry!
its so difficult!
the nursing research-.- oh man. donnoe how to do AT ALL.
just got a test. wah. sad leh!
the questions is TRICKY!!
and coz of it, 6 marks is gone!! ! super sad
i spent a lot of time to study leh
but;(
never mind. God will help me to pull thru de !NO PROBLEM!!:D

2008-10-24T22:33:00.002+08:00

IM SUPER SUPER HAPPY CAN!!
COZ ITE WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY WON!!!!!!!!!!!!

still rmb some time back at the beginning of this year
i said that im being selected to go for some competition.
WSS--> the world standard nursing skill (something like that)
and i rejected this offer coz i don wan to commit.
WELL THEY WON!
they went for the competition last thurs and they got 2 GOLDs, 2 SILVERs!!!
all is my friends loh!!!!!!!!!!
and the other institute got 1 silver ONLY.

yes, i really regret i never go at all. really. not that i surely get a medal or wat but its just the experience that counts. haix

COME ON ENROLLED NURSES!!!!!!!! CHEERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

2008-10-13T23:30:00.003+08:00

I SERIOUSLY MISS MY COLLEAGUES A LOT A LOT A LOT LOH.
though its just the first day of skol.
hmm, shouldnt think too much de rite. but ya, im super stressed up!
one year never touch yr 1 notes. all the things i just forgotten everything liao loh
i rmb i got studied before. but JUST CANT REMEMBER A SINGLE THING
i don't like it.
maybe its just the first day.
everybody say will get used to it de.
alright thn, will try.
im stress up totally.

God i need ur help.
stop all this negative feelings.

2008-10-08T00:13:00.006+08:00

wah! wat a busy day.

hmm, but i still enjoyed it. :D

counting down?

sunday 12 oct is my last day of work le. :(

on morning shift. kind of she bu de working life. :(

wanna share some photos :D my working place

SINGAPORE GENERAL HOSPITAL

WARD 58 B2, general ward

this is the corridor loh. ya, all the way to the other side is the isolation rooms. :D

in-between got high dependency and ICA :D

the nursing counter, :D with my water bottle and tibits. LOL.

i hate sitting ard here in the day.

everybody will just come and ask u questions-.-

esp when u super busy.

some of my colleagues.

rashidah, weixien, me, kah mun and angeline.

they helped me a lot okies esp when i super new. :D

in the middle is syamimi.

she super funny de, she don looked stress at all when doing work. LOL

oh, notice a new girl on my right?

her name is DENISE! lol.

funny lah. she is always stress. lolx

my first night! :D BEFORE JCI!!!
saliza and me. ard 2 plus in the morning i think.

im super new loh. she taught me how to update my chart, and wat to do at night. :D

super funny to work with her.

i like it.

im really serious with my charts and documentation. :D

but i start to play after a while. LOL

still got a lot more.

im going to catch them to take photos with me

hehe:D

2008-10-01T23:39:00.002+08:00

forced myself to work today.
ya, morning shift somemore.
very tiring.
wear the surgical mask the whole day, blocked nose
sore throat, headache, body ache, left ear blocked.
maybe inside is swollen liao.

and it's a "nice" day today.
early in the morning,
my room got one patient suddenly kind of collapsed.
and yes, i did the "packing" with my friend.
what a nice thing to start a day huh?
further more its a coroner case. my first time doing such cases. *blur
i realised that i never even nurse those patients before. as in those that i did the "packing"
i donnoe them at all.
maybe becoz of that i don feel anything at all bah.
the only thing that i can ever do for them is to make them clean and tidy for their family bah.
the son really upset. he shouted loudly.
i really scared that he will just come in and ask me get out of the place.
*im alone inside, abt to do the last office.*
but he didnt. he let us do it.
sad for him bah. the son. haix.

i did 2 dressings today, helped my in charge.
well, removing of staples of the wound.
cool ya. simple lah! haha. but the in middle of the wound, there is one big hole inside.
i wondered what that big hole for. ???
actually i like to do dressings.
the complicated the better.
but not that kind of bed sore lah.
that is smelly and disgusting. esp when cleaning up the body waste. oh man.
horrible.
maybe i also can become a wound nurse too???
haha.

im off again on thurs, going on night again on friday to sunday.
ya, sianx lah.
but my colleagues that im going to work with are NICE.
so its okies!

2008-09-29T23:48:00.003+08:00

oh no. im down with flu.
irritating flu, causing me to feel sore throat.
taken medicines, feel quite drowsy.
roars. i hate feeling sick

less thn 2 more weeks.
thn im back to student life again.
no longer enrolled nurse liao.
kind of feeling sad lah.

anyway, questioned some of my students today.
haha. yes, really forced them to think of rationales of some things.
woo, cool!
maybe beside becoming a pallative nurse, i can also become a clinical instructor too!
cool leh.
maybe, it feels good to question people, training new nurses. haha. COOL!
but i hate that a nurse needs to have advance diploma in nursing, degree in nursing and even master in nursing wor.
wah, when will i ever achieve that???????
*WAH!*
i believe that the pay will be really COOL! haha.

yes, i got the sponsorship for diploma in nursing liao.
God's blessings, honestly..
lots of things happened in order to get this sponsorship.
yes, perhap God have His plan for me to stuck in SGH forever liao.
i keep thinking that, if other people can do it, i also can do it de.
NO PROBLEM, jiayou.!

2008-09-26T23:23:00.003+08:00

LAO AH HUANG! U DID THIS TO ME~ HOW DARE YOU~!

well, anyway. long time no blog. no mood no time no energy no intention to write.
lots of things happened lah.

Adeline came back lah. called me during my night shift ( not so busy time)
hospital issues lah (LOTS AND LOTS)
other things

well, as u all know, im a BUFFET lover that caused me how i look now. LOL
i went to porridge buffet at tiong bahru plaza with ADELINE CHOO after my night shifts.
WOOO. hmmm, okies lah. no bad. can go nxt time again. :D
beside still got the PAPERSTEAMBOAT WOR. MY SUPER FAVOURITE! HEHE
my next aim. LOLX

I got a lots of cute cute patients recently. and funny doctors, as well as medical students.
SO FUNNY!
i can write and make into a little notebook named "Days of Enrolled Nurse LiKhoon"

okies, share with u this little old man.
he is 80 plus? english speaking. bad-temper, skinny like bamboo, got dentures, eyes very big, dementia, both hands on restrainer, kopi-o lover, noise-maker,

initally i thought that he is a very good patient but im wrong.
he is so skinny leh, that me myself i can shift him up and down the bed on my own. i guess he weighed around >40? he is a good living skeleton to count the number of ribs and bones, as well as u can see where is the joints etc. haha.
every morning he will press and press the call bell, just to drink kopi-o please kopi- o please.
of coz we make for him lah.

the way he sleep hor, u don really know he is breathing a not. mouth open big big, slided down the bed. both leg hanging at the cot side with toes pointing upward. both hands kana restrained. aiyo. saw him like that, wah, fainted. he is my big boss loh.

he can be very nice to the nurses when the relatives is not there. wah, when he saw his wife and etc hor, scold dirty words like one whole list of poems like that, so rhythm loh. whatever u can think of, he can name it. super "li-hai" de okies. thn he will bad mood all the way.
cute old man.

i asked him " how old are you?"
he thought for a while and asked me back " how old are you leh?"
i answered back "im twenty this yr"
he replied immediately "HAHA, im younger than u! im just 16 yrs old this yr."
LOL!
i didnt ask him just once okies, i asked him 3 times hor. he replied the same thing okies! funny a not. HAHA. cool man.

do u believe that i really know how to take blood already???? LOL!
i know where to poke the needle into the veins and remain CALM. haha.
sometimes hands will auto-shiver a bit. but it's okies. hehe
haha, that last night shift, cool man, i took 2 persons blood.
SUCCESSFULLY OKIES.
well, i poked abt 20 people already?
i liked it! :D haha. not bad not bad. well done LIKHOON! CHEERS!

ytd, i assessed a student do NGT feeding (milk), which is a tube inserted into a person stomach through the nose and right down to the tummy.
she said that this is not her first time.
okies, well, let's go and do it.
however, its a total disappointment, scary experience for me.
i believed that a normal person should know where is the location of the stomach. just at least know left or right.
she ar, horrible leh. wah, medical healthcare worker don know where is stomach. its on the left loh at least. oh man. she put the hearing thingy on the RIGHT! can u faint a not?
well, i hinted her. she thn put the hearing thingy at most stupid space, the lungs there. can faint again?
i really shooted her right in face loh, and showed her the correct position.
aiya, the whole thing is just nothing but stupid lah. don know the reason why this and that, don even know wat to look out for. very scary wor.
yet can said not the first time doing. wah, i pity the first few patients done by her.
lucky nothing happen wor.

don study lah, play lah, play lah.
a death may happen because of ignorant nurse.
its a irreverible consequence that a nurse can never be a nurse again.

2008-09-05T22:45:00.002+08:00

i never feel so desperate before like now for God to really answer my prayers.
to really hear HIM and know wat to do.
im at loss of words.
i don know how to do / wat to do
why dont YOU come and tell me hor?
just at least i will do it correctly, YOUR way.

PUSH PUSH PUSH
maybe i never PUSH myself hard enough
or take a little more efforts to understand?
to really care and LOVE?

"LOVE..... bears all things, believes all things, endures all things, hope all things" (NKJV)
"LOVE never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstances" (NLT)

i believe my God will answer my prayers one day.

2008-08-31T20:53:00.002+08:00

aiyo! sianx lah!~
one week of annual leaves like that over liao le loh!
why like that ar? time passed so fast ar.
sickening.
beside doing drill for the first 4 days
i went out to eat sakura again on thurs! hehe. i like buffets!
hmm, my next craving is the buffet in clementi.
haha. anybody wan to go with me?
lolx.
went triple "W" on friday
shiok man!
the most fun, exciting challenging day for me.
esp the black- U shape de, the two person sit de
wah!!! that one, please! i will never sit that again.
georgina with me, she sat back facing downward, me?
i facing the whole thing! downward! wah, it just so scary lah.
the urlah-lah also, not as crazy as that but somewhere there. that one hor,
still okies lah. hehe.
enjoyed a lot.
i just realised that i scared of height bah.
anything that is higher than 3 storey height, i just cant take it.
lol. the sky rider. not very fun thing but it seems so scary. aiyo.
i only like the lazy pool and the wave pool. lolx.
that ones just nice. :D

LIKHOON! JIAYOU!
u need to be strong.
both mentally and physically!

2008-08-21T09:45:00.003+08:00

no longer fun

no longer meaningful

no longer joyful

no longer happy

lesser smiles on the face

fewer genuine love from the inside

getting more and more stranger with the present me

who am i actually?

same environment

same workloads

the only difference is just the position

and it's enough to tire me out

though i said im used to it already

but wat i am now,

is not i wanted to be initally.

it is just almost opposite of it.

everyday is just the same

dark and cloudy

hoping that work will be easier than the day before

and it's just a dream that never come true

colleagues, supervisiors, doctors

some are good

to talk, work, play

some just horrible

unreasonable terrible

nothing but scoldings

and that can turn me off straightaway

no good no good no good

i don like it

who can understand?

2008-08-17T23:24:00.002+08:00

on night again tml?
4 nights again.
God, pls give me 4 wonderful nights okies.
no admission no DIL no problems at all please.

yes, PLEASE. thn my Annual leaves liao!
WAHAHAHAHA.
ask me out ya, AH TAN--> yes you! hehe. sms when u free hor.

2008-08-08T15:05:00.002+08:00

OH FINISHED!
finally finished my 2 round of night shift.
HELLO! it's FOUR DAYS OF NIGHT OKIES!
let me die can. lolz.
but however, this round of night is so much better thn the 1st round of night.
just at least, i got the time to SLEEP, REST, TALK, EAT AND SLACK.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
haix. but i don really like to work with my staff nurse though he is the best between the 2 in- charge.
nothing to talk loh, haix.
communication barrier. same as the other 3. ROARS
all are mothers can. talk abt their children. wah.
but as much as i really wan to join in, i feel quite lost when they said abt cooking, marketing etc.
these are not my topics to talk can.
LOLX. end up i sat one corner kiao ka on a chair, and close my eyes for 45 mins. :D
all patients good boys and good girls. haha, never disturb me much. good good. i like it! :D

well, the shift for next 2 weeks are out again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and im going on NIGHT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ONE WORD TO DESCRIBE MY FEELING: MISERABLE!
DON WAN!!
next week : Evening, Day, Day, Evening, Day, Day, OFF
the week after next week: Night, Night, Night, Night, SD, OFF, Rest
the week after next week: ANNUAL LEAVE FOR A WEEK!!!!
work 2 weeks thn ANNUAL LEAVE AGAIN
work another 3 weeks thn GO POLY LIAO.
wah, fast hor.
i just got my confirmment letter leh. haix
work another 1 mths plus only.
kind of --------------- sad bah.

2008-08-03T00:43:00.002+08:00

过去的批评嘲讽 let it go let it go
过去的轻蔑冷落 let it go let it go
有些人口不饶人
却忘了瞧瞧自己又有什么资格
时刻都善良待人 let's move on let's move on
时刻都做好本分 let's move on let's move on
有些人心思浅薄
绝不是宽容自暴自弃的理由
也许确实也受过言语打击
也许从来也没有什么好际遇
千万别将勇气深锁在阴影里
我们又不会妨碍这世界继续美丽
我知道我变漂亮了我知道我被注意了
曾难过曾失落微笑一下就过
外在的美貌容易戳破
内在的美好细水长流
我知道我变漂亮了我知道我也豁达了
不自卑不埋怨就算还差一点点
用内涵弥补一切缺陷
内在的美迷住每个人的眼
用内涵弥补一切缺陷
内在的美迷住每个人的眼

2008-08-01T23:47:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NURSES DAY!!

to me and my friends

it is my first time to celebrate as FULL TIME STAFF in sgh

it is my first time to see that the TV advertisments to wish "happy nurses" day

it is my first time to eat a "happy nurses day" cake from coffeebean (it really taste good!!)

it is my first time that colleagues wish me "happy nurses day" when i step into the ward

it is my first time to receive "happy nurses day" gifts from Doctors!!!! as well as pharmactists!

wah! cool!

it is also the day when my big boss came up to me to pass me my confirmment of employment letter from sgh!! ( though im leaving soon)

ahaha

COOL COOL COOL

i missed them! really! my ite friends! enrolled nurses.

you all are so real lah.

not faking de.

don like mean don like, like mean like.

not happy also will say it out, wont gossip around.

wah, i loved u guys man.

happy nurses day friends.

2008-07-30T20:54:00.003+08:00

i saw a woman, eating lunch.
inside her lunchbox, i saw only white plain rice with raw sliced cucumbers.
a cup of plain water beside her.

first thought to my mind was like "why ar?"
so poor thing, no money to buy food meh?
looking around at other people delicious food, and my yong tao fu.
no soya sauce nor gravy on it.
its just plain. really plain.

will you?

do u realise how fortunate we are to have enough money for a proper meal each day?

2008-07-30T00:37:00.005+08:00

my nurse jacket. hehe.

its not a gift okies.

look nice right, i like the colour okies. wah.

its the best thing i got from sgh so far. haha

MY NURSES DAY GIFT FROM SGH! :D

it is actually a "sleeping bag-like-cover"

still not bad, good quality :D

*above*
this is the thing that i have to wear whenever im on shift.
i don like the photo lah. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

NURSES DAY coming soon le

hehe.

1 august!~

my first nurses day in SGH! haha. :D

well, gonna have a lot of things going on ya.

most of my colleagues know that im going to study le.

-.- school starting in oct.

i only left with 2 mths plus leh.

feeling kind of sad rather thn happy bah.

as in, used to it liao loh.

thn suddenly say go thn go.

-.- sad.

2008-07-22T20:37:00.002+08:00

i sprained my ankle at work leh.
coz of the auntie lah, made the floor so wet.
and still dare to say, "wat? not wet wat. why will fall down? not very wet wat."
my colleague scolded her loh.
not even a sorry can.
irritating, i cant be bother to scold her either. too pain liao.
old injury loh, got once swollen up like pig trotter like that, sianz.
and now again, cant even work properly,
its a busy irritating day some more loh can!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ROARS~!
today got chest tube insertion~! but im so packed to see at all -.-
i really wan to see.

2008-07-20T00:07:00.002+08:00

finally i went to church again liao!
and i will be there again nxt week coz its my precious off day!
cheers!!! :D great.

today talked abt the characters.
cares only abt wat angels said before the Father's throne?
ya.
true enough,
i know that God is also there, u cant hide away from His presence at all.
only He can leave me alone. but i know He will never do that.
renewed my mind, and strive hard to be good. :D

i don like to give up no matter how tough the situation is.
yes regina, i really did thought of giving up.
but i realised that i don like to be a loser.
i wan to be a winner and i will be strong!

jiayou. :D
i know u all my sisters will be there for me ya. JIAYOU WOR.
push push push!

2008-07-17T01:18:00.010+08:00

i like this! :D

the twenty!!

i feel like slapping her!

i like it
i like it
I LIKE THIS THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hamster!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U

LAO AH HUANG AR!

TWENTY TWENTY TWENTY!

OUR SWEET TWENTY!!!

cheers to twenty years old ppl!

jie ning and ah huang and

ME!

haha

judy is on the way joining us liao.

just u wait.

haha.

went to secret recipes

haha, to be honest, i don dare to walk out of the restaurant loh

wah, sit liao never order thn go.

wah, shy leh. paiseh leh.

haix.

but went to grace's hse.

aiya~

it have been a long long time since i last went her hse

hmmm, 2 years liao?

haha

the feeling is like a grp of adults loh

go her hse bai lian that kind.

all grown up liao, no longer kids anymore.

haha. weird weird.

Fun!

took lots of funny photos.

I LIKE IT. ;D

2008-07-16T01:32:00.002+08:00

i loved my off days but also hate it too.
-.- everybody is so busy with school, studies and projects.
it just that, its my off day leh. but couldnt find one to go out play.
u noe, PLAY?? -.- hard lah.

don feel good at all.
don wan to stay at home.
got a "meng qi" inside that i wan to show it out.
but i donnoe how.
went to play swings ALONE *again* just now.
and had my favourite strawberry sundae too.
feel so much happier.
lots of things happened. and very exhausted.
exhausted to think of all this things liao.
stop.

to be honest,
i wan to escape and run away.
can i?
free from problems, things, people.
can i?
kind of coward hor.
but sometimes, just wan to run away.
will turn off when ppl start to tok to me regarding those things.

i hate growing up.
can i be like a kid who is so carefree?
cheerful, happy, and laughing all day long.
why being adult have to face so many things?
i know its a process that everyone have to go through, but its kind of tough bah.
growing up?

i missed being a little girl.

2008-07-13T14:56:00.002+08:00

night shift is no good.
i don like.
have to take 18 patients.
the first night is horrible. like my first night in my skol day, everybody got bladder problem. wan to pee the whole night.
so many things to do.
i tot i got the time to eat play and drink in the ward wor.
LIKE REAL.
my job is just continuous without any break de okies. straight 11 hours.
my pace is just very slow.

last night already.
tml is the JCI audit.
wah, got the sponge/wipe all my patients except walkers.
crazy crazy crazy.

im busy with work. got wrong meh?
why is it that i have to hear things that will really disturb me de. why why why.
why so ???
why u all cant be guai????
im quite sick of doing all this things liao.
really.
i don have the enough energy to check and find out loh.
its will drive me crazy.
for sure.

2008-07-09T20:57:00.002+08:00

wah, finally off day again! :D
wanted to go out today de. as in alone loh.
from morning til night.
they rest all studying. haix thn my nursing friends all working.
the timing is so wrong.
hai
even today wan to go and eat sakura also, moodless liao
anyway.

im going out TOMOLO!
yes, alone!:D
haha.

2008-07-06T21:51:00.002+08:00

hmmm, one week just passed and tml is a MONDAY!
work work work until mixed up all the dates and days liao.
gonna work on monday and tues.
wed thurs off.
fri sat sun NIGHT SHIFT
btw, for some ppl who donnoe, nurses work 24/7 de okies.
its a shift work hor.

getting used to my job liao i guess?
very stress initially with tachycardia symptoms
now is like "slack abit, wait wait, okies"
haha.
i suctioned a patient with tracheostomy today leh
that's so cool lah
haha. i finally got the experience of suctioning such patient.
its my first time. but EASY lah, same same. :D
i just pity him only.
cant tok at all. sad.
wat to do? -.-

a simple advise.
don smoke or drink.
it just some factors that will cause cancer eventually.
and if u got throat cancer. nose cancer, trachea cancer lung cancer due to smoking.
it just ur fault. serve u right that kind of thing.
as in, that is how i think lah.
if u didnt smoke thn u got such a respiratory cancer just like my mom did, hmmm i only can pity and sympatize you bah.
stress is another factor of causing cancer too.

2008-07-04T23:31:00.003+08:00

I HAVE A LOT OF THINGS TO BLOG LEH~!!

FIRST, MY VERY OWN PRECEPTOR PRAISED ME LEH!!
OH MY MAMAMA!~~
its so so so so nice lah can!!~
she ignored me and yet when i tok to her, wah!!! she praised me leh!
im so HAPPY LEH SUPER SUPER HAPPY!!~~
she said that hmmm, got some feedback from colleagues. and good feedback lah.
they said that IM GOOD IM GOOD!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! OKIES! Humble humble humble humble.
im not that good. HAHA!!
haha, comparing me tgt with another girl.
wah, its a long long long story. difficult to express it here.
but im SO HAPPY LAH!
feedback is good leh!! hORRAY!
my efforts didnt went down the drain ya. :D :D :D :D
THANK GOD! haha. i didnt let HIM down either. haha

ya, went out with SEVENTH for JIENING BIRTHDAY!
haha. went to 'THE MINDCAFE".
yes, had a lot of fun.
walk on the Elgin Bridge with my girls. haha. on my time. i tot its would be longer.
:D

ADELINE CHOO!!
you went over liao.
im sad that i cant send u off.
very sad loh.
the next time i can see u is only during christmas period?
i bet everybody will book a day to go out with u esp ur cafe ppl.
hai hai hai hai hai.
:(((((((((((((((((
nobody can listen to my NAGGING LIAO.
:(((((((((((
better don be blur over there hor.

JOINT COMMISSIONAL INTERNATIONAL Audit
this is the super famous topic in SGH NOW.
haix. have 2 audits already. yesterday and today. wah, ROARS!
im on afternoon shift loh. stress up like mad.
for the first time i saw my preparation room SO NEAT and TIDY.
never once before.
haha. sad to say that.
but its just to stress up man.
read one thick pile of notes, revising all the things. trying to squeeze everything into my brain.
aiyo, worse than studying for exams.
if got kana "caught" by the auditors. wah, its like struck 4D lah can. -.-
hmmm, my colleagues who have went thru the JCI previous said that during that whole entire weeks, it was scary. haha.
aiyoyoyo.
fainting man.
they said that when the auditors ask questions, the CEO of SGH, Nursing Directiors and Assistant Nursing Directors, Nurse Clinicians, Doctors, Press from the mediacorp etc will stare at you when u are answering them. its more than 20 over ppl with cameras. ROARS
this is BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD.
i don wan to be one of them lah can.
PLEASE PRAY FOR ME LEH.
I DON WAN TO BE FAMOUS FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO ANSWER ANY QUESTIONS.

2008-06-29T21:43:00.004+08:00

finally went to church after 3 week of MIA.
haha. :D
sermon was good. important for me.
i needed rest. :D true rest.

almost depression ytd when i knew that im taking 18 patients today
especially the morning shift.
oh wah wah wah.
stupid lah, changed shift with my colleagues. dots
how stupid of me right. but cannot reject her liao.
haix.
have been praying to God the whole night that please please please.
please, everything be easy can?
roars.
CLEO IS SO SWEET. THANK FOR THE SMS DEAR GIRL :D
sometime is just a simple sms to push someone on. :D

well, really testing my patience this morning.
waited for mrt from 540am to 6pm. never mind.
who KNOW MY SKIRT GOT STAINED WITH ****************
CHILLI SAUSE LAH.
wah wah wah wah wah wah.
stop at Bukit Gombak, used water to wash.
wah, the stain still remain there lah.-.-
waited for taxi. *i really don wan*
so many ppl waiting for taXi lah! snatching taxi.
wah wah wah wah 615am got into a taxi.
wah, trying to cool down. doing deep breathing exercises. cool cool chill.
went to work.
THANK GOD, I ONLY TAKE 1 ROOM
haha, coz got enough ppl. haha! nice. :D

know my rooster today for nxt 2 week.
wah wah wah. finally.
GOD BLESS OKIES!, tues im off. :D
thn we can go out liao huh seventh. :D

HOWEVER, i cant go church and gb for the nxt 2 week liao.
i got 2 afternoon for nxt week fri and sat.
and i going on my first nights on the following week after next frm friday to sunday.
WOO!~ i wonder how it will feel like. haha. :D
NIGHT SHIFT LEH.
night shift really have to take 18 patients liao. -__-"""

i plan to do chicken ham salad, sandwiches. haha
bringing drinks too! :D

2008-06-26T23:09:00.002+08:00

oh man, im really tired.
sitting in front of computer doing something when i really don wan to.
the bed is calling me. asking me to sleep.
so tired. fainting. worked straight 7 days and tml is morning again. my last 8th day. thn off on sat.

why cant ppl be understanding that working is really tiring?
i felt that i don have the extra time to do extra things.
yes. if u say i can if i wan to.
but im mentally dead.

if only they are okies and guai,
it will really help me alot.
i wont think so much and worry so much and try to do something.
haix.
wat is understanding?
-.-
if wan me to understand more, thn open a way for me lah.
it is really tiring u know.
really tiring okies.

2008-06-24T23:56:00.002+08:00

it have been a long time since i could laugh and laugh out loud.
laugh until tummy cramp? super fun!

went out with few of my colleagues after morning shift. hehe. :D
my first DATE with them.
i tot it will be a little bit kind of weird coz never go out before mah.
and not much topics to talk abt. haha.
well, i shouldnt have think so much in the first place.
its like so fun lah. jokes, laughters craps, silent laughters and many.
we went to "The MindCafe" located at boat quay, which somewhere near SGH.
haha. its was FUN!! something like buddy hoagies.
but wat so special abt them is actually the boardgames.
there are many different types of boardgames that i never even see before except monopoly, scrabble, dictionary etc.
FUN.
sat there from 530pm to 1030 pm.
all we do is to play those stupid games lah.
haha, i will wish to go one day again.
yes. :D
anybody? hehe. not a clubbing place by the way. :D
just pure innocent cafe. :D

my colleagues are all jokers lah. LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH!
i was thinking that nobody will ever believe that we are all nurses, playing stupid lame games in the cafe, shouting away? haha. absolute high pitch. haha.
FUN LAH!

Seventh!!~ wanna go together?? hehe. :D
kind of far. but its another place to play beside eating. haha. :D

I HAVE BEEN WORKING IN SGH FOR 1 MONTH AND TWO DAYS LE LEH!!
so fast!!!!! oh my goodness, pay is in liao. haha. *LOVEDIT!*
i survived!! :D

i realised that my ward got a lot christians. :D

2008-06-21T21:39:00.002+08:00

oh man.
jumped out of bed at530am whereby i should have get out of the hse at the mrt on my way to work already.
ya, worked afternoon the day before.
i even have to run to the busstop to catch the bus. roars!~

i really hate morning. but time passed really fast thn afternoon.
but i still hate morning. its my 3rd time not going for my break already.
understand that kind of busy in the ward.
"wonderful wonderful"
and its super irritating when im doing something, some people, patients or doctors will come and stop me and wan me to help them, immediately.
but cant be helped mah. have to wait right.
and that their things can really wait.
the whole hospital not just that (UR) patient alone that the doc should worry abt him the most rite.
i got my things to do and it have to be done. -.-
watever..
its just so irritating when ppl kept asking me whether doc coming anot. how i know? dont they get it? haix.
not that i don care, i also wish that the doc will come and they will stop bugging me. but its not within my ability mah.
haix.

i took a person blood today! my 8th patient. well, its successful, YES*!
but hor, that patient screamed in PAIN.
oh please. i did nothing except poking him! -.-
how irritating is he to say that im the first person to poke him til so so so painful.
but no loh. he said that i anyhow poke into the vessels. wahliao. oh please.
it supposed to poke inside the vessels de okies. if not how? everywhere u cut got blood flush out ar.
thn he shut up.
wah, please loh. none of them say i poke pain loh.
wah, he is the first. and i wont poke him again. -.- NEVER.

i understand the importance of teamwork already.
if i can help i will help.
to be frank, sometimes just to tired to help.
but have to. if not will die alone.
well, that one particular day afternoon shift.
i almost die, and i didnt have my dinner too.*busy again*
no teamwork at all. miserable.
had my dinner at 11pm.
poor girl hor? lucky nxt day off.

okies okies, enough of my complaints.

though the money is really attracting.
but i still cannot convince myself over the 4.5 yrs of bond.
i still need time to think abt it.

2008-06-19T21:04:00.002+08:00

headache.
wondering when i will fall sick again. -_-

i hate to make decisions.
why have to make decision on own? as in, i don have to make so many important decisions in the past.
ya.
one have to be responsible for each decisions they make.
and yes, im scared of responsiblity.

very irritating.
should i or should i not?
Assistant Director of Nursing in SGH came to meet me on tues.
she suggested me to take sponsorship.
saying 4.5 yrs not long and etc.
should i take up the sponsership in SGH again as diploma? or should not?
4.5 years seemed very long to me loh.
ya.
but its very attractive lah.
don have to work.
but. wat should i do?

i have found myself a private nursing agency. the pay is very attracting also
$110 per day. wah. nice loh. 10days got $1100 liao.
hmmm....

2008-06-16T22:47:00.002+08:00

hohoho. :DDDDDDDD so funny
today got 2 funny incident happened in the ward.
haha. its kind of the funniest thing tat i ever encountered.
shy shy shy shy shy :P

haha.
i really got communication barrier with the "Bangala" haha
the way i tok to him is worse that toking to hearing impaired/ sight-impaired ppl.
"teeths? fake? real?"---> when i actually wan to ask if he got denture a not. haha
aiyo. SOSOSOSO funny.

but the two incidents is not abt this. haha
:D come and ask me if interested loh.

well well well
getting more and more tired in work liao
as in i tot i can tahan the working pace, but its just too tired for me le bah.
will climb into my cosy bed for a short nap first.
although i getting used to the ward standard.
but some patients really *********************************
i realised that i cant produce my best patient care when im super tired and have to finish up my paper work.
not easy not easy.

really have doubt whether nursing is for me a not at times. -.-

2008-06-11T10:10:00.002+08:00

a new announcement. :)
my senior nurse manager said can le.
she said can go and apply for the course liao.
hmm.
though can go, but still got some "no peace" inside my heart.

anyway, getting used to my ward routine le wor
im faster and better le bah. but i think i need more knowledge up "THERE"
as in i need to be a bit more faster so that i got time to read the casenotes bah. knowing wat is happening. ya. i don wan to be like blur blur when relatives asked questions.

the students in my ward is getting on my nerves liao.
just came back from polyclinic thn everything also forgotten to do.
give me blur look.
waH!! please. slow down my pace. -___-"""
hate it.

2008-06-06T23:05:00.002+08:00

feel so good to have off day. :D
can sleep long hours and relax til the maximum

haix,
really tired after work
how to manage?
one person 24 hrs is so limited lah
i cant probably call and tok on phone everyday just to maintain the friendship rite?
its tiring.
ya.
it take ones effort to even maintain it, a REPLY sms, a SWEET sms, a MISSED call, a CALL really makes a difference.
its whether they wan or they don wan.
sometimes, waiting for someone to reply my sms, that kind of feeling. wah.
i know they saw but choose to ignore.
haix.
don bother don bother? haix, actions makes one feel sad huh.
but they don bother.

wat for work so hard? wat for wat for?
no point at all.

2008-06-02T22:08:00.002+08:00

wooo!~~~~~ i finally poked somebody for blood taking wor. :D
finally got a chance liao. :D
its a 19 yrs old guy.
haha. the feeling is shiok man!
cool cool cool loh.

i hate working morning man :D
i really hate it
today in another room that i totally have no idea abt them at all.
furthermore, no student. wah! hate it okies.
im just feeling so tired to do anything loh.
really tired to the max.
only juniors help juniors.
wah. i see the room hor, all sponging. no students, big size. me alone?
headache.
thank God i still survived.
tml leh? wed leh?
all morning leh. -_-"