You spoke to me

Dear Lord,
You spoke to me.
Yes, You did & I know it.
I wrote my feelings and words that I wanna tell you.
with that expectations
I awaiting your reply.
Wondering if you ever know wat is in my heart.

In sermon in that service itself You were there.
U said Im in spiritual battle, wrestle with the devil all the time.
You said wat im doing is for the sake of my friends' soul. not just me alone.

Yes, indeed. Satan always used the stupid same old tricks. But why am I that stupid enough to even believe in his lies over again. and You said help is from You.
God, You are the winner. How stupid can a person be to even fight with you because even the satan not that stupid to fight with you face to face but attack us your children.

2 Corinthians 2:11:
11 so that Satan will not outsmart us. For we are familiar with his evil schemes.

Yes God,
Satan keeps me distracted all the time.
I placed work and studies above you after ITE.
Why do i feel that its by my own ability to achieve such results and not by ur strenght lo. How stupid can i be.
Yes, once the devil caught our attention in seeing wat he is doing, we will give my attention to wat seem urgent but not impt. How sad is it to know.
I am selfish,God. I always focus on myself instead of focusing on you who gave me everything though it doesnt belong to me. Im selfish also because i forgotten abt the impt of lost souls mean to You and me. totally forgotten abt the purpose.We are called to make disciples of all nations. Not just in singapore and a small area. Im selfish because i look into the needs of myself and not others before me.

Yes, You answered me again. I asked you once why do I mixed with friends so easily thn other ppl. And You said that even You gave me friends, I don even dare to share. How shameful of me God. I totally ignored the talents you have given to me. And Yes God, I know wat You saying. Serve the community Now.

I told You I hate for being big in size. Yet God, You said that size does not matter. every single part is vital.

The devil likes to keep us distracted. and yes, all the time.
He made me focus on the things that went wrong and even asked You why is it so. only I found out God You are always in control at the very end. You forgave me and let me move on with you and start all over again.

You said it so true. You said unless im spiritually tranformed, only thn my live will impact others. this is the answer im been waiting for God. More thn the results that i got from studies and GB.
the purpose is that I wan my live to impact others in a special way.

Bring me back to You.
Give me another chance again God.
This life that I used to live is terrible and meaningless.